Aankhein bhi baatein karti hain….

“Sonia, 6 baj gae chal jaldi, attendance ka time ho gya hai, aaj to nayi warden aayi hai, maze karenge,”
“Haan, haan bas 2 min yar, bas lower pehen lun warna pta chla pehle hi din shorts pe lecture mil jaega” , maine kaha. Sorry sorry,apna intro to de dun, main, Sonia, engineering final ki student hun, bahut shaitan hun, frendz ke saath khub mastiyan karti hun, apni life se mujhe bahut pyaar hai, halanki I don’t believe much in love n all, bas mere liye 2 hi pyaar ke forms hain, ek meri life jise main poori tarah jeena chahti hun and 2nd meri Di, jiske liye hi main jeeti hun. And aaj humari new wardy aai hai,suna hai kafi soft spoken hai, 1 beti hai uski school jati hai wo bhi yhin uske saath rahegi.
Podium pe wo khade hokar, 1st-4th year ko all time welcome lecture de rahi thi. Hum thoda late pahunche to picche khade hona pade. Wardy ki awaaz bahut dheere dheere aa rahi thi. Hum picche se comment pass karna shuru kar diye, aur chunki saare juniors the to kuch keh bhi nahi rahe the humein. Tabhi yhi koi 10-11 saal ki chhoti si bachchi daudte bhaagte pichhe ki taraf aayi.
Maine apne paas bula kar pucha, “ apka naam kya hai?”. Usne kaha, “ Mummy ne kisi stranger se baat karne ko mana kia hai”. Kehte hue wo wings ki taraf bhaag gai aur hum uski naadaani pe hasne lage. Wardy ki awaaz bahut clear nahi aa ri thi to hum kuch ladkiyon ko hatate hue thoda aage badhe. Awaaz kuch clear to hui par mere mann ke taar ko chhedne lagi,aisi awaaz jiski tadap jaise barson se dafn kar rakhi ho mann ke bhanvar me. Ajeeb vidambna thi mann ki ki jis chhan ka makhaul banana aye the wo mujhpe hi hasne laga tha. Maine utsuktavash gardan utha kar dekhne ki koshish ki, 40-45 umra ki aurat halki aasmaani rang ki sooti sari me,na koi saaj na shringar me mere saamne thi,isi ek jhalak ko dekh ke main agle hi pal mud kar wapas apne kamre ki taraf chal padi.
“Sonia kahan ja rahi ho? Ruk na yar….”
Mere kaanon me sirf wahi awaaz hi goonj rahi thi, aur wardy ki jhalak bas. Na kuch aur sunai diya, na dikhai dia. Wing me pahunchi to ek kone me wahi chhoti bachchi khel rahi thi, main usse nazrein bacha ke use dekhne lagi. Kho gai usi me. Us nanhi si jaan ki harkatein dekhne lagi, kya ye wahi hai jise raat raat bhar apne pet pe leta kar sulaya tha, kya ye wahi hai jise janm pe injection lage the to di aur mere aansu nahi ruk rahe the, kya ye wahi hai jise chhoti si kharoch bhi lag jae to di aur meri jaan sookh jati thi? Use dekhte dekhte aur apne mann ke bhanvar me khote kab meri aankhein nam ho gai pata hi nahi chala.
Saari ladkiyan wapas aane lagi, aur aaya di aakar us bachchi ko le ja rahi thi. Haath rokne ko aage badhe zaroor par shabdon ki kami pad gai thi jaise. Meri saheliyan baatein karne lagi, wardy bahut vinamr svabhaav ki hai, acha hai final year tak koi to aayi jo thoda humari pareshaniyan sune, kafi changes honge hostel me ab jaate jaate to vagayrah vagayrah…. Par main ab bhi us awaaz me, us jhalak me, us bachchi ki harkaton me uljhi thi. Kuch mere saamne tha, acha ya bura nahi pata par aisa jo saalon se seene me dafn dard pe chaku ki nok chala raha tha. Ghanton beet gae par main ab bhi usi awastha me thi ki na aage badha jae na kuch kia jae.
“Oye kudiye, tujhe kya hua hai? Wardy se itna impress ho gai kya jo bol bhi nahi rahi?”
“Sonia, tu thik hai na? Chup rehte hue dekha ni tujhe isliye puch rahi.”
“Kahin humari Ms.I-don’t-believe-in-love ko love-shove to nahi ho gya na?”
“Chup karo tum log, aur jao yahan se please. Mujhe thodi der akele rehna hai.” Sab chale gae to fir se khalipan ke ehsaas ne ghher lia mujhko. Ghadi dekha to raat k 11.10 ho rahe the. Main bina kuch soche channel pe gai aur aaya di se kaha mujhe nai warden se milna hai. “Raat ke 11baj rae hain channel nahi khulega.”
“Maine kaha na mujhe abhi milna hai,” maine kade hoke kaha to wo warden se puch ke aai.
“Madam ji ne aane ki izazat di hai tabhi khol rahi hun, tum final year wale to sir me dard kar rakhe ho.”
Mere 1-1 kadam jaise saanson pe bhaari pad rahe the. Maine darwaza khatkhataya, andar se wahi awaaz mujhe aane ko boli. Main andar gai…
Saamne wardy apne bed ke paas baithi thi, haath me katori aur chammach liye, apni bachchi ko kahani suna ke 1-1 kaur khila rahi thi. Meri aankhon ne mera saath chhod diya,bas ye nahi pata ki aansuon ko mauka gam ka mila tha ya khushi ka. Unhone bina meri taraf dekhe hi pucha, “Ye meri beti hai, khana khane me bahut shaitani karti hai. Aapko itni raat me mujhse kya kaam tha?”
Mere andar ke bhanvaron me bas yaadon ke panno se itna hi drishya dikha- main school se aakar idhar udhar daudti thi aur meri maa mujhe yunhi katori-chammach me khana liye 1-1 kaur khilate hue kehti thi,ye meri chhoti hai na khana khane me bahut shaitani krti hai.
Maine bahut mushkil se yaadon aur haqiqat ki ladai se khud ko saamne laakar bas wardy se itna kaha- “ Mumma…”
Haan, aaj poore 10 saal ke baad mere saamne meri apni maa, meri apni chhoti behen ke saath khadi thi. Aur kaisa mera durbhagya ki jo bachchi mujhse baat kar ke pehli bar me nikal gai use main itna bhi nahi pehchaan pai ki wo mera apna khoon hai.
Wo mudi meri taraf aur unke haath se katori chhoot gai. Aansu baant liye usne mere aur khud ki palkein bhi bhiga li, fir kuch na samajh aya to baahein faila di, aur main jaise in baahon ko kitna taras chuki rahi hun bas jake uske seene se lag gai. Jab use aakhri baar dekha tha to main uske kandhon se neeche aati thi, aaj waqt ne kahan laa dia ki wo mere kandhon se neeche aa rahi thi. Maine apni behen ko god me lia, wo mujhe nahi pehchaan rahi thi, par mumma se mujhe kareeb dekh ke kuch gussa ho gai thi mujhse. Han ye wahi thi jiske janm ke baad se ek pal bhi use dekhe bina rehna mushkil tha. Maine di ko fone kia, use sab kuch bataya aur mumma se baat bhi karvai.
10 saalon ke jakhm bharna asaan nahi hote hain par ateet ke kuch panno ki aahat jab achanak se dard ke taaron pe dastak deti hai to zuban se zyada aankhein baatein karti hain.

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